Addictions use is to escape from our hardships and also from the person we became. We have a hard time living with ourselves so we invent a character to hide from us and the world. We try to cover up the mistakes we made and it works fooling other people but we stay miserable knowing we can’t hide from ourselves. We think addictions is a shield to hide our guilt and remorse and the fool we have been. Using them makes it easier to face the world again but mostly to face ourselves. During recovery we sit in dark corners knowing we are driving everyone away from us and now we feel rejected and no one will return to us. What bothers us is the possible loss of a friend or several. We need to change into a more perfect person. After we live sober the friends we lost will come back and they won’t care what happened during your drunken binges. All they care about is your loyalty and struggle to stay sober and remain the good person they knew you had the smarts to become all along. After seeing the quality person you became all your friends may follow you into the good life of sobriety. No addictions user is happy with the person they are.
Living in sobriety we take off the masks we wore pretending to be the person we never was and wouldn’t want to be in real life. We don’t choose our character we are forced to live with the person the addictions chose for us and in sobriety we can choose a better one. Best part about it nothing to hide anymore.
see ya’ next time
