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Looking down into the snake pit death in the eyes, fang and venom waiting for the moment to kill. Coming home to the strange ways of life reaching for the small pills for thrills. More action with the “powdered poison” on the tongue. Having had enough becoming dazed and confused coming off your high to make room for more. Staying long hours until the collapse of the brain. Rested and ready for something new light up the pipe to fill your body with chemical and smoke. You said goodbye to the world without a prayer for yourself while sitting in a trance waiting for the next party to begin. Sad that you decided to kill your brain. On the crack house door is a sign that reads “welcome to the house of Rigor Mortis.” Slow movements another dose choosing a slow death with the final twinge of the fingers and toes. The end is near. You got what you asked for looking straight ahead with a gaze in your eyes alive looking dead. You wanted to be a real decaying corpse in your grave. Not this time . You stayed alive to go back for more. Stay in recovery and search all the Crack houses for all the fragments of your brain.

. Was the loss all worthwhile to you?

. see ya’ next time

A guilty conscience, foolish choices and showing off our lack of sense are the reasons we all party in the dark. Hiding from each others faces and mostly our own. The shame of the dead boozer is covered by the shadow across the tombstone. The epitaph is left off by request so no one will know how much of a fool you made of yourself. Buried with the shame of your life with all the other unknowns. In the rotted casket below filled with water, worms, and a green layer of mold on the skin. The only value in life was spending money, booze and destroying your brain. Just another pauper and more to follow. We dig our own grave and we lay in it. The final service with a short prayer by an unknown sympathetic soul there to grieve for a friend of his own. Quit the booze and save your money so you can be buried in a better place and not be tossed into the landfill.

“In charity field with the paupers and the prisoners”

. see ya’ next time

Between midnight and dawn when the hot and cold dripping sweat feels like cold rain waking up dizzy seeing yourself as a drunken fool again and again. Hiding from the problems of your life is not an effective way of solving them. Nothing about sobriety is hard to understand it’s the way we try to live it that we make it difficult for ourselves. Living with addictions and the emotional torment is no easy ride. The decision to walk away is confusing with the fears we must confront. With every morning after we have the low feeling that no one cares about you and wanting to like yourself better but have not found any value about you yet. When you find it you will protect and defend it and this will only stay strong during sobriety. Relape will crush it and it will not be as strong again. Adding to more depression and the increase of the fear of self-destruction. This is the extreme dangers of relapse. During the morning after you may feel worthless and in most cases it becomes permanent. The addictions must stop now before you get this far along. The sadness will remain for awhile as the thoughts of addictions will stay with us. The warmth of our own acceptance begins it will slowly kill off all the discomforts in our soul. It is now empty as it waits to be filled with a better man. Sobriety is important and the only thing that will come to your rescue. Emotional strength will rise again and being sober is your safe haven. Your friends will be at the bar wishing they could be you. The long March down the dangerous road to your sober home wanting you to save them. Invite them in so that they can imitate your life to improve their lives the way you did your own.Wait for them they will be coming.

Being sober for any length of time is not easy at times but the struggle pays off.

see ya’ next time

Our perfect life is where we belong not what we force ourselves to adapt to. Relationships become boring unable to create anything new and useful. You have completed your duties now move on to another way of life. Devote your time to studying your favorite subject and not be connected with limits rules and demands that caused your stress then being desperate to get out of it. Fooling ourselves in believing we can change enough to be accepted. Playing a character we hate just to fit in. Why that group? Some people never travel with groups. What is comfortable to you? Being alone? Then do it. Stay alone and do your own thing. Relax and enjoy life. Live your own life not someone else’s. People that spend time alone is their own perfect fit. Many writers write large books in small rooms away from the distraction of people. Many of their pursuits in life failed because they didn’t fit in. No one fits in everywhere. Never thinking they would ever be successful as a writer. At one time they didn’t then they studied and became a writer. Getting drunk then recovering from a hangover then the booze again is a dangerous circle. When will you ever find the time to study?

. We all have to find our proper place in life we will never find it in bars and booze.

. see ya’ next time

A father said to his son about his addiction. You prove to me you are serious about changing your ways by helping yourself half way then I’ll make an effort to help you the rest of the way. Right now I’m not convinced you are serious and neither are you. Choose any method you wish and live with it for the rest of your life. The son came to his father and said he chose the Bible. The father asked his son to explain the lesson he learned and follow it for the remaining years of your life. The son responded by reading the “Parable of the lost son” in the bible. The father said to his son. You are almost out of the darkness now I will guide you the rest of the way to live in the spiritual light and you will never again return to darkness. As long as the son stayed with the bible all his doubts about his future have disappeared and confident they never will again.

. We all are lost and can be found if we look for ourselves and never give up trying.

. see ya’ next time

A new year means an improved year is planned. Going out on New Year’s Eve for the traditional year end binge is nothing new. The same plan as other years is to drink and live the same worn out plan to make fools of yourself. What is going to be new? Coming home drunk, getting up in the morning hungover, your mate nags at you to do work around the house. Wash the car, clean out the dog coop, milk the cows and grumbling the whole time you are doing them. Hurry up and finish then on your way to the next binge. No grumbling about it I’ll bet. Then the group of friends gather complaining about your mates making you do essential jobs at home like washing your laundry that you left go for three weeks and also yourself. You don’t need a new year you need a new you. Your personality and your attitude is also becoming a problem. This has been going on for years. Haven’t you gotten tired of living this way? Washed out a few articles of clothing for the evening out. Socks are still a little damp, pants not dry enough still damp around the waistband and sticks to the skin when wearing them. In a hurry you wash the dog blanket with your dress shirts then you’ll walk around smelling like the dog. Still hungover mistaking the box of cat litter for laundry soap then wash your bed sheets and never notice it.

How many other odd creations are you going to invent in the coming year?

. The pleasures of addictions? Have a Happy New Year.

. see ya’ next time

The last binge beneath a cold midnight moon in the final hours then to our death with the rising sun. Thoughts and reflections from the living has begun. What will be my strange future when I look deep into my eyes? What sinful truth will be revealed there? The mirror reflection of your evil and useless soul left to the worms as they slowly eat away at your flesh. Emptiness of the skull now the resting place for the worms to reside. The rising of the sun worms and bugs begin their feast again as another boozer died after his last breath. Booze will kill us all only to become the food for many strange looking worms. Booze destroyed our soul and created our misery and to fall to our death and liquor becomes the winning contender. Only a few fragments of flesh and bone is all that is left now. The worms have moved on to the next boozer who lays dead next to his party friend. From the start of booze and into a failing life to the final collapse to the ground and then we become cold and dead.

Many people will gaze at the decayed and worm eaten remains with a lesson learned not to use addictions. A sign is placed beside the remains that reads:

. “I said no to sobriety”

. see ya’ next time

Getting involved with addictions and the wrong crowd the more chances you will take. They will encourage you to try new experiences. Only a select few are singled out. Now you know why you were invited. Especially when you go home in worse condition compared to all the others. Keep this in mind the next time you get invited by a strange group of party goers. Strange experiences will happen. We need to be creative inventing new ideas on how to stay addictions free and keep our minds from the thoughts of it. Improving our lives will take time and we need to stay in quality environments find new friends and the new life will come easier. We will discover better experiences in our new life after leaving all the bad elements in our lives at the curb. Always look for changes that will make your life worth living again. Sobriety is the place to find it.

. Start attending prayer meetings and you will meet a better class of people

It is always a good idea to have one good friend than having many of the wrong ones.

. Create a group of quality friends not a quantity of bad elements. When you break up with your mate give the reason “I finally became sensible”. All boozers are strange people with peculiar ideas. I have seen many people like this in my lifetime.

. see ya’ next time

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Remove many flaws in your life and you will have a simple relaxed enjoyable life. It is important to recognize what useless clutter is and discard it. Living within too many relationships will cause stress and anger toward yourself for accepting the wrong life and the fear that there is no way out and more anger that you will need to leave it all behind. Create a comfortable life staying single is the main focus. Relationships isn’t for everyone. Don’t believe or trust or follow what you read in romance novels. Real life relationships are never perfect as they are in our imagination. Being sober and single is designed for those who wants to live without restrictions. Struggling with a marriage, a lot of stress and a drinking problem that happened after you got married. This scenario is very common. Decide to walk away from all this. Time to think of yourself and relax and stay away from all addictions and all the worries of our lives.

. Sobriety is the perfect life for every person

. see ya’ next time

How can people live with themselves carrying bitterness around 24/7. Do anything with your life but drink and do drugs. Too much serious living and not enough fun. Live a carefree life and forget all the disasters. End the staggering, constant ill feeling and complaining. Sobriety makes a better life. Stagger to rehab and never drink again. We all try to hide our failures without success. Appear silly in our clumsy attempts. Why not learn to avoid them? Staying sober is the only solution. Does this make sense? Confidence we can find big successful moments in our efforts. With sobriety all our efforts to overcome any issue will become successful. Act and speak like a sober human instead of a drunken mixed up fool. Who can enjoy this kind of life? Don’t make a career out of making a fool of yourself. Every morning when I see the sunrise I feel gratitude that my drinking issues are finally over. When we look for a friend in life that will stay loyal to us and always be there to help us. It is your Bible. People change the printed page doesn’t. Sensibility, morality and spirituality has replaced the devil’s folly. This is a changing society. More people are giving up addictions for better things to do. Giving up the ghost means they no longer believe they can do it successfully. Try very hard to succeed but all our attempts ended in failure so we give up trying. Sobriety is much easier to live with than addictions. No more hardship just pleasant living. We find big rewards living sober it is a great victory.

. What did addictions offer us besides grief?

. see ya’ next time