We are the entertainers and some else is running the show. We are all followers. We couldn’t lead ourselves out of a room made of doors. We think we can solve every issue. Don’t pretend to have all the answers. Talk to people. Depression and confusion in a dark desolate room is a lonely place to die. “They’re always looking for better one’s”. Applies to mates and other uses. Keep in mind people around you are doing this. Don’t let people find someone better than you. Straighten up and be the better man. Good chance your mate is doing this right now. Looking for someone else. No one likes a show off and it’s hard for me to believe that you like being one. Drinkers are this way to entertain people and to amuse themselves. No problem it only happens while drunk but for some people it happens while sober. A mate tries to get serious with you and all you have to offer is amusement pretending to avoid the hardships of the real world that we should be taking serious. Start pouring booze into your body then a clown starts to emerge trying to hide from the failure you believe you are from other people too. You can’t fool people into thinking this is the real you and lying to them and yourself. No person on earth can be comfortable living this way. You must be miserable and feeling foolish and hard to face yourself in the mirror the next morning sobering up. This is one reason why living sober is better than living like a fake pretending to a man without hardship. You need to live a sober life and show the world that you are a better person that can face reality while being sober. Why be a pretender and disgrace yourself when you can be real and sober. Show this off at your next party. Will make an impression for others to follow.
You must feel totally destroyed and very low so give it up and live a happy life.
see ya’ next time
