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We all wonder about ourselves with no plans to save us as we sink deeper into depression. What will become of this worthless soul. Can it be saved or is it the end. Addictions will keep us chained to this misery desperate to break away but will never happen with our total weakness of our mind, body, and soul. We used up all our energy and smarts and the booze dried it up. Wanting to end this grief will motivate us to stay sober for life. Your present life and the future is your debate now not the morning after and where your next binge will happen. The moral life is there to help us mature and act sensible. The sober life will protect us from the evils of the world that stalk us. Both are concerned about us when no one else is. A good life is hidden inside of morality and sobriety we need to stay with it until we find it. Within its dark tunnels our improvement is waiting. We will walk these dark tunnels for the rest of our lives and witness the changes that will keep happening to us. The bright light of a sensible life will help us find our way. The rest of the world will follow behind us as we show them how to find a sober life. Sobriety is a leadership for others to follow us is better than being down and out wishing we were dead. Walk away and never look back.

Sobriety and morality will save the world when they choose to live it.

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Other miserable men, when they are thrown into prison, if they are robbed of the beauty of the world, are at least safe, in some measure, from the world’s most deadly slings, most awful arrows. They can hide in the darkness of their cells, and of their very disgrace make a mode of sanctuary. The world having had its will, goes its way, and they are left to suffer undisturbed. With me it has been different. Sorrow after sorrow has come beating at the prison doors in search of me. They have opened the gates wide and let them in. The messenger of death has brought me his tidings and gone his way, and in entire solitude, and isolated from all that could give me comfort, or suggest relief, I have to bear the intolerable burden of misery and remorse that the memory of my mother placed upon me, and places on me still. That is and always will remain to me a source of infinite distress, of infinite pain, of grief without end or limit. Now I find hidden away in my nature something that tells me that nothing in the whole world is meaningless, and suffering least of all. That something hidden away in my nature, like a treasure in a field, is humility. And the end of it all is that I have got to forgive you. I must do so.

DE PROFUNDIS BY OSCAR WILDE 1897

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Addictions created the worst scenarios in us creating the person we become by choosing to use them. Turn away from them and create a moral and sober life. We live the fast life and travel far we can never escape ourselves. Living the life of booze we have lost everything but not hope for a sober life. The long road ends nowhere for boozers. We dream of disasters then awaken to the same one. Our only friend is the darkness because we don’t have to look at our own faces. Will never hide the emotions from guilt. Living sober will destroy them. The life of a boozer looking for a place to die. Fear to save us or the freedom of the grave. We become by the choices we make. A self-made man. We all stop and look back and see a better life was there. Our days are serene for now in a sober life. But for a boozer the gathering of heartaches starts again. Why keep making your issues worse for yourself? complain but do nothing to help yourself. This makes no sense at all. Have an addiction problem? Go to rehab. It’s that simple. The longer we stay addicted the harder it is to quit. The sooner the better. We have two choices in life. Improve or keep getting worse. Bullying our way through life drunk. Mumbling not making our voices clear enough to be heard or worthwhile listening to by other people. No better feeling than a sober life. Try it yourself.

Another binge: just a short ride to more grief.

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Misguided drunk boozers gather in crowded bars and parties to follow the odd minded leaders into gradual ruins of the mind. Only a groggy-eyed hungover boozer would think twice about going back but will make a second trip. The dead and the living both take losses in life so we grieve by visiting the grave or find solutions for our daily struggles ahead. The addictions life is strange but I don’t know which is more so the life itself or the people that pursue it. We have to be a little odd to want to live it and brag how good it is. When we start to feel how silly it all is may be enough to not want to do it anymore. We are not less strange than addictions use. Fill our bodies with booze and the odd person will emerge. Laughing and enjoying being odd is acting normal in the addictions lifestyle. I stay sober because the life of booze doesn’t fit into an organized life. Life itself and human nature has a natural strangeness of their own. With booze our minds become dangerous and unpleasant to ourselves. Some people cannot change this the damage is done. We need to stay sober to protect our minds and save our good personality before we destroy it. Can’t stay away from addictions? Keep trying harder to make it happen because you need to have a working brain. People have warned me about the dangers of booze but I ignored it. Why did I? Do you know the reason why you did? How to live without it is what you need to know. Rehab is the first step staying away from the addictions lifestyle is the second. I did it this way and I never drank since. There are many ways to stay sober see if you can find them all and live them. The past is dead and gone so don’t worry about how it destroyed you. The worst is over no need to think of the past. Ignore the people who keep reminding you of it. Hide from them.

We trade our soul for binges and a restless life

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Have you seen the limit of your guilt? Don’t care if there is more to come? The careless acts of addictions use that will cause a tragedy will get your remorse working to motivate you to improve. End addictions to prevent it. Nothing is safer than sobriety. Taking a break between binges we are still not finished with our startling tales of death and suffering. Time to recover and can’t wait to get more. Why not use the same energy to stay sober? Why live in sad moments and not the sober life? The cheerful side of life? No care for yourself? Why not? The only thing that concerns you is the plan to attend the next binge this is what we want to do. Face the cruel world and be cruel to yourself at the same time. Why do this? Because you hate yourself? Self-hate is a part of addictions abuse. As long as you remain heartless and uncaring for yourself and others you will always have reason to punish yourself. Every dose you put into your body it will make your agony worse each time. They will never improve your life. Haven’t you noticed this by now? What is your most intense fear? Injury to others or publicity? If you have this you would be living in sobriety right now. No one can tolerate this so don’t be a fool to try. Be sensible and walk away. You walk into a room to avoid the storm but do nothing to keep yourself safe from the life of booze. Ask yourself why. What is your answer? Drug use is like a real prison.

You did your suffering is time for you to live sober

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All the evils of our lives took a small bite from our brain then washing it down with the madness of booze. Insane in a black stone room with wire covered windows with the sound of blue flashes of thunder. Stains of dried blood and flesh stuck to the wall from the past dead and insane. Beating our heads on the stone blocks pleading for the end of our misery being denied the joy of freedom that only our dead bodies are allowed to leave. What night was your worst fear? Is it this one? In this room? Our screams are the final moments before our death at sunrise. Happiness is long gone and we are nowhere to be found on earth. Enjoy the madness of the slow pounding of our conscience getting it’s revenge in a room made of stone a place for our madness to reside. Is there joy in booze when all we get for our efforts is insanity in a stone room. Why do we bother? In a room we won’t remember who we are. The living will not want to. We already are society rejects then we do it to ourselves. Hard to find a person to care about us. To become that person by living a moral life. Learning to become a moralist is where we create better people for ourselves and others. The times when we need people the most they are nowhere to be found or not interested anymore. Be a moralist. Depend on yourself. Don’t bother people about your problems take care of it on your own. Be a survivor not a crash and burn. Stay away from the drugs and booze and you won’t need to worry about living in the stone room. A true moralist would never choose the addictions life but a sober one. The life of booze promised you insanity in a stone room.

This is now your home sweet home.

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With speed to arrive at a party to buy whatever to satisfy a craving to kill off our brain. How much more of your brain do you have left? Why don’t you care? The frantic searches are endless. No small amount can satisfy the craving for the life of danger. The constant rush of every dose and there is never enough. We live a strange life with an odd mix of needs, wants, and reasons. Three lists that will create the most tragic stories that all have one thing in common. All created by the twisted minds consuming endless addictions. All scenarios have different details but one question is placed on the markers of the dead: Why’d he do this? His way of giving advice to the curious first time user. won’t listen? Why not? Tragic tales and endings are heard every day and still a large following. Why? Blinded by the neon lights and the glamor of a great high. The rush keeps on coming and no end in sight. Passed out in the shadows waking up with your brain half-dead. Why do we ignore the safety when we know how dangerous addictions are? The real tragedy is not caring enough about ourselves to turn away. You don’t care? You must. It’s your life, your body, your brain. You can’t replace it. You say you have heard many stories about drug disasters and still you go out and take more. Maybe you are too far gone and nothing left to save. If this is you nothing can save you. Quit before it’s too late. Better yet don’t ever start. Why do you want to end up a disaster? Mumbling to yourself? Madness. Whatever happens in the midst and ending of a binge we have us to blame and no one else.

We put careful selection in the drugs we choose but no concern for our health.

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We go in search for an understanding of ourselves we never had and won’t find it in crowds of failures. Go with the riches of books instead of entering into the pointless life of addictions. Avoid worn out connections with mates who only abuse you. We started to attend gatherings for a social life first the booze then fall in love with strange people. More booze more strange as it goes. Not long after you are running for your life. Hardships of the road and crying in the dark hiding in a cemetery with the storm clouds coming. To escape an unsafe boozer. We spent time in our secret thoughts what we wanted to do later in years then feeling upset we never pursued what we planned. Feeling more angry that we ended up in the worst lifestyle on earth. There are sober social groups out there. Being sober they will be tame instead of dangerous. Why does it take so long to decide to change? Why not after the first binge? No glitter in the life of booze. All dreams and smiles and total happiness with a few drinks wore off for one mate or both. The one thing is for sure we can’t get into a career with a booze problem so total sobriety is a must. Forget about mates just focus on a sober life for awhile. When you get a new mate and he offers you a drink make it a coffee drink. This way we will get what we expect to find. A relaxed life with every day being the same. Living this solitary life never fails. Your tears will dry up.

Booze: Just one more failure in a life filled with failures.

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We create evil worlds inside our head full of hardship and we get a thrill from them. We never tell a soul about them keeping them all locked up inside. Waiting for the time to gather watching in the night planning the next binge. Pouring endless amounts of booze and drugs into our brain wasting away our good health because it’s fun to do so. As we sit around very drunk and choke and suffocate and strangle ourselves until our last gasp of breath. The tight grip is loosened at the last second so we can survive this strange ordeal. Fun to do? This is the ultimate sin. Can it be worse? With addictions use there is no worse way to destroy ourselves. With too much booze in our bodies we would have so little memory of it. To destroy ourselves little by little is the ultimate thrill? We have little value with nothing to lose? Why not be concerned? Why is drinking the best fun in the world to some people? No respect? No safety? No smarts? You don’t need to hear about the details in your morning after. You have been through enough. Booze can make you do strange things. Is this the fun part? Destroying ourselves is the worst sin we can do. Think about it. Why not? Addictions will kill off the brain, the body, and our thinking process. We won’t be able to think anymore just stare straight ahead in a trance. Nothing is worse.

Start living sober and experience the ultimate life

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Deep inside our minds we feel hopeless and don’t measure up to society but fit in perfectly with being careless and destroying our lives. This is strange. We have low opinions and intense fear and failure and can’t be intimate in any way. We feel insecure and self-hating becoming a nervous wreck. We fail in every attempt to improve ourselves because we don’t try hard enough and stay with it for a long time. Give it time. Results will come. Addictions use is populated with real victims not some made up story in a book. Escaping into drug trips to get away from realty that we don’t have the smarts to live it. As the guilt increases so does the doses. This kind of thinking is so common and very real. As a boozer I kept thinking there is a way out of this life. Thinking it should be a constant party. The fall will come. The trap door will cave in and we will land onto the surface of a hard reality. A lesson learned and over with as long as we stay sober. What problems can sobriety cause? problems? Study them. Learn to solve them. Put some smarts in your life. Be a mentor. Improve not shame yourself. Throw out the worthless thoughts and replace it with an intelligent subject. Learn music. Learn to perform it. Your ideas don’t work out so well so try it my way. Stay sober and your self-worth will return and the emptiness inside never will again. There is no way to enjoy the life of booze and not your sober life. Stop being another failure on your already impressive list of failures.

I live sobriety my way and I never have any problems. Try it my way?

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