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Taking charge of your own life and proving you are able to is something a lot of people cannot manage. Sobriety is a matter of struggle and wanting to improve. Success is made from this and failure is due in part to laziness. Sobriety and relapse is a fight between two powers living a sensible life and the destruction of addictions. Do you have the power to keep addictions away or the weakness to invite them in? The fear of losing sobriety or addictions? What loss will you experience by choosing one or the other? Unspoken thoughts like guilt that remains like a stain on a rug? Like a strong wind pushing you to the booze? Consume enough so you don’t hear your own thoughts? What is the strong motivation that is pushing you away from recovery? What are you afraid of losing? Can’t live with personal abuse from your friends because you chose to be sober? You would rather live with a disaster in your life than stay sober? Your reason or reasons for doing this are all stupid reasons. If you don’t know the reason you are refusing sobriety you must find it and kill it off. This is blocking morality from entering your life and welcoming addictions to control you. This happened to me and I killed it off in rehab. It never returned. All through my sobriety morality is my decision maker. How many more years until you start living a moral life? The thoughts of my past life as a boozer sends a slight fear through me. I have no interest in returning to my nightly binges the fear keeps me away from it as it should for everyone.

Is today the moment when all your grief ends? Go to rehab and watch it all begin.

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Making changes begins with the expert use of our thoughts. If you don’t control what you think, you can’t control what you do. Living within self-restraint will keep us from saying and doing the wrong things in life. As we go through life we correct little mistakes that comes to us along the way. We know our minds better than anyone so we can decide better what thoughts and actions to change. When people tell us to change our ways in some cases we were not aware that we had any issues then we thank them for letting us know. The next step is learning how to make the changes and the methods and sources to use. No one wants to listen to constant commands to make changes about us so it is more comforting to do it ourselves and not having to be told. This is called “self-regulating”. making our own corrections when we need to. In the process we learn good behavior and better actions with addictions use we destroy all the discipline we relied on. It is essential for us to constantly add knowledge of what a moral life is and practice it daily. Self-improvement and moral living must be our main focus then our sobriety will work properly. Many books have been written to improve us and heal the damage that has been done. Addictions use is never allowed in a moral life so we must always say no to stay within quality. When someone gets into trouble you are right there in it with them. Does this sound familiar? You seriously need a moral life.

Every decision we make must be within moral living.

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We live with the broken fragments of our lives created by addictions use. Only the hardships are real being the only promise that exists and changes can be made at our request. We rise up with the phony bravery that booze will give us feeling like royalty and defending the life with loyalty. We lived it but it’s time to end it. Some live in the shelter of a moral life for other people it is the “kingdom of nothingness.” Everything you lived for and did was a waste of time, effort and money. A complete waste of a life but a new start is in the future. The addictions life is no longer the king we once thought it to be and we are nothing more than a defeated has been. We don’t sit on a throne and pretend to have all the answers for the problems of the world. No longer bragging how we knew it all. Experts at nothing. Now we live a sober and honest life admitting we made mistakes and trying not to repeat them. Who wants to be a king? I’d rather live an honest life than be dishonest we had enough of it as a boozer. Time to prove we are better people than royalty and that is something to be loyal to.

“Stay sober and live in your own kingdom”

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Details of a tragedy will be from mild to intense disasters will always tell a true story. People leave out what they have to hide. The more that is concealed the more mild it becomes is why searchers never gather the whole truth for this reason. Tucked inside our conscience are the partners in crime. Being bothered by this night and day will drive us to madness. Graveside visits and strong booze will never make this feeling go away because booze created the tragedy and more to put an end to the memory then drink too much again to kill our brain . No one carries more guilt than the next person. Who will be the survivor? The one who led you into the crime or the last one to follow the group? Drinking more booze will be a constant reminder of what can happen when you drink too much. Remaining sober and let the fear of booze burn in our bodies to keep us from getting too close again. Images of the tragedy makes us want to hide from ourselves and the memory remains the same. Admitt you made a mistake and never repeat it is the easiest way to cope with a tragedy. The memorial of your friend is not in the graveyard it is you staying sober for the rest of your life.

Don’t be the cause of your own death or another friend.

“Your sobriety is your friend’s memorial”

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Looking down into the snake pit death in the eyes, fang and venom waiting for the moment to kill. Coming home to the strange ways of life reaching for the small pills for thrills. More action with the “powdered poison” on the tongue. Having had enough becoming dazed and confused coming off your high to make room for more. Staying long hours until the collapse of the brain. Rested and ready for something new light up the pipe to fill your body with chemical and smoke. You said goodbye to the world without a prayer for yourself while sitting in a trance waiting for the next party to begin. Sad that you decided to kill your brain. On the crack house door is a sign that reads “welcome to the house of Rigor Mortis.” Slow movements another dose choosing a slow death with the final twinge of the fingers and toes. The end is near. You got what you asked for looking straight ahead with a gaze in your eyes alive looking dead. You wanted to be a real decaying corpse in your grave. Not this time . You stayed alive to go back for more. Stay in recovery and search all the Crack houses for all the fragments of your brain.

. Was the loss all worthwhile to you?

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A guilty conscience, foolish choices and showing off our lack of sense are the reasons we all party in the dark. Hiding from each others faces and mostly our own. The shame of the dead boozer is covered by the shadow across the tombstone. The epitaph is left off by request so no one will know how much of a fool you made of yourself. Buried with the shame of your life with all the other unknowns. In the rotted casket below filled with water, worms, and a green layer of mold on the skin. The only value in life was spending money, booze and destroying your brain. Just another pauper and more to follow. We dig our own grave and we lay in it. The final service with a short prayer by an unknown sympathetic soul there to grieve for a friend of his own. Quit the booze and save your money so you can be buried in a better place and not be tossed into the landfill.

“In charity field with the paupers and the prisoners”

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Between midnight and dawn when the hot and cold dripping sweat feels like cold rain waking up dizzy seeing yourself as a drunken fool again and again. Hiding from the problems of your life is not an effective way of solving them. Nothing about sobriety is hard to understand it’s the way we try to live it that we make it difficult for ourselves. Living with addictions and the emotional torment is no easy ride. The decision to walk away is confusing with the fears we must confront. With every morning after we have the low feeling that no one cares about you and wanting to like yourself better but have not found any value about you yet. When you find it you will protect and defend it and this will only stay strong during sobriety. Relape will crush it and it will not be as strong again. Adding to more depression and the increase of the fear of self-destruction. This is the extreme dangers of relapse. During the morning after you may feel worthless and in most cases it becomes permanent. The addictions must stop now before you get this far along. The sadness will remain for awhile as the thoughts of addictions will stay with us. The warmth of our own acceptance begins it will slowly kill off all the discomforts in our soul. It is now empty as it waits to be filled with a better man. Sobriety is important and the only thing that will come to your rescue. Emotional strength will rise again and being sober is your safe haven. Your friends will be at the bar wishing they could be you. The long March down the dangerous road to your sober home wanting you to save them. Invite them in so that they can imitate your life to improve their lives the way you did your own.Wait for them they will be coming.

Being sober for any length of time is not easy at times but the struggle pays off.

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Our perfect life is where we belong not what we force ourselves to adapt to. Relationships become boring unable to create anything new and useful. You have completed your duties now move on to another way of life. Devote your time to studying your favorite subject and not be connected with limits rules and demands that caused your stress then being desperate to get out of it. Fooling ourselves in believing we can change enough to be accepted. Playing a character we hate just to fit in. Why that group? Some people never travel with groups. What is comfortable to you? Being alone? Then do it. Stay alone and do your own thing. Relax and enjoy life. Live your own life not someone else’s. People that spend time alone is their own perfect fit. Many writers write large books in small rooms away from the distraction of people. Many of their pursuits in life failed because they didn’t fit in. No one fits in everywhere. Never thinking they would ever be successful as a writer. At one time they didn’t then they studied and became a writer. Getting drunk then recovering from a hangover then the booze again is a dangerous circle. When will you ever find the time to study?

. We all have to find our proper place in life we will never find it in bars and booze.

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A father said to his son about his addiction. You prove to me you are serious about changing your ways by helping yourself half way then I’ll make an effort to help you the rest of the way. Right now I’m not convinced you are serious and neither are you. Choose any method you wish and live with it for the rest of your life. The son came to his father and said he chose the Bible. The father asked his son to explain the lesson he learned and follow it for the remaining years of your life. The son responded by reading the “Parable of the lost son” in the bible. The father said to his son. You are almost out of the darkness now I will guide you the rest of the way to live in the spiritual light and you will never again return to darkness. As long as the son stayed with the bible all his doubts about his future have disappeared and confident they never will again.

. We all are lost and can be found if we look for ourselves and never give up trying.

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A new year means an improved year is planned. Going out on New Year’s Eve for the traditional year end binge is nothing new. The same plan as other years is to drink and live the same worn out plan to make fools of yourself. What is going to be new? Coming home drunk, getting up in the morning hungover, your mate nags at you to do work around the house. Wash the car, clean out the dog coop, milk the cows and grumbling the whole time you are doing them. Hurry up and finish then on your way to the next binge. No grumbling about it I’ll bet. Then the group of friends gather complaining about your mates making you do essential jobs at home like washing your laundry that you left go for three weeks and also yourself. You don’t need a new year you need a new you. Your personality and your attitude is also becoming a problem. This has been going on for years. Haven’t you gotten tired of living this way? Washed out a few articles of clothing for the evening out. Socks are still a little damp, pants not dry enough still damp around the waistband and sticks to the skin when wearing them. In a hurry you wash the dog blanket with your dress shirts then you’ll walk around smelling like the dog. Still hungover mistaking the box of cat litter for laundry soap then wash your bed sheets and never notice it.

How many other odd creations are you going to invent in the coming year?

. The pleasures of addictions? Have a Happy New Year.

. see ya’ next time