Month: August 2022

Deep inside our minds we feel hopeless and don’t measure up to society but fit in perfectly with being careless and destroying our lives. This is strange. We have low opinions and intense fear and failure and can’t be intimate in any way. We feel insecure and self-hating becoming a nervous wreck. We fail in every attempt to improve ourselves because we don’t try hard enough and stay with it for a long time. Give it time. Results will come. Addictions use is populated with real victims not some made up story in a book. Escaping into drug trips to get away from realty that we don’t have the smarts to live it. As the guilt increases so does the doses. This kind of thinking is so common and very real. As a boozer I kept thinking there is a way out of this life. Thinking it should be a constant party. The fall will come. The trap door will cave in and we will land onto the surface of a hard reality. A lesson learned and over with as long as we stay sober. What problems can sobriety cause? problems? Study them. Learn to solve them. Put some smarts in your life. Be a mentor. Improve not shame yourself. Throw out the worthless thoughts and replace it with an intelligent subject. Learn music. Learn to perform it. Your ideas don’t work out so well so try it my way. Stay sober and your self-worth will return and the emptiness inside never will again. There is no way to enjoy the life of booze and not your sober life. Stop being another failure on your already impressive list of failures.

I live sobriety my way and I never have any problems. Try it my way?

see ya’ next time

Put the amount of ground coffee in a maker that you usually do. Add exactly one half as much water. A 4-cup maker is 20 ounces of water. Add only 10 ounces. This is homemade cold brew coffee. Put 1/4 cup of this hot coffee in a small cup then add cool whip on top. This is cold brew latte.

For homemade cream put 5 ounces of hot tap water in a measuring cup then add 3 tablespoons coffee creamer powder. Add to chilled cold brew and you have cold brew with cream. Chill each for 12 hours before mixing.

Any ground coffee will do but I use the Folgers black silk variety.

The idea of homemade cold brew and cream is to save us a fortune. 8 ounces only costs about a dollar to make. Not the same as the coffee shop version but it’s close.

Anyone can afford this kind of party.

see ya’ next time

A wandering band of saloon bums decided to free a captured friend chained to the sober life as his drunken friends calls it. He left the group of bums to live a sober life until his friends got him to drinking again wanting him drunk than sober. He died during his first binge in a while not a welcome home or a party to celebrate the return of the drunken bums. Enjoying his new life should have stayed home and lost sight of the bums gathering. His dead body laying on the ground in the dust. His friends stood looking at him minus a conscience and remorse. Take him with you now he’s back with his own kind. They talked about caring for a friend now that you are drunk you have no feeling at all. Where do you wander to next? Another friend to destroy? More booze to silence the torment of your guilt? Indian wrestle with your conscience? Stare at the grave and poke yourself until phony tears starts to flow. This is the time to share your emotions with each other and share remorse for your losses. Something drunken bums know nothing about or don’t care to. You had no interest in protecting your friend but destroying him was your first choice as it was for your own life.

You already had your punishment. A lifetime sentence to live with yourself.

see ya’ next time

Under the dark gray sky we feel the frigid moments of our shame and guilt that will remain in the next sunny day. Booze will make the plans for your life not you. We were blinded by the bright lights and the glitter not to see the dangers within. In time turning to dark gray as the cold wind blows. Back to the party then the happiness returns? Out of the glitter then the tears and the rain. We sit in places with the same depressed feeling as a rainy day and never in a cheerful mood. Crying on the inside we sit in the misty rain looking into the distance that is dark and haunted sitting in a cemetery next to a marker with the word death on an epitaph. Why did we choose this marker? When we live a depressed life we cry in depressed areas. Feeling shame and wanting to hide we sit in an alley. Living sober we walk the land and sit in the sun and think of a moral life. Cold and wet and no dry clothes to be found. At this moment booze will not be a comfort to you. You have run out of choices being home and sober is the only one that will save you now. Find a quiet place to swim in your hardship and read books to comfort your stressful life spending time in a library. The rain storm will pass then the sun. With addictions the storm never ends and never leave the cold rain. You will arrive in one of these places after every binge you have. We tossed aside all forms of struggle in life booze being our choice and thought the party life was going to be an easy ride. It was at first but not now. Sitting by the window calmly watching the rough waters on the sea is easier than trying to swim the dangerous current. Easier to stay sober than to fight an addiction.

Be sober and drink coffee watching the rain fall from the sky and not from your eyes.

see ya’ next time