The feeling of failure can be the worst of all. The hardest to overcome. For me it was and still is. True for most people. After a relapse we are convinced that the next sobriety will be a failure too. Failure is not easy to admit looking at ourselves in a mirror. Why did I relapse after 2 years being sober? The unknown truth about ourselves. Tell me then we’ll both know is a good answer. Failure can be terrifying to some people. I wanted to stay sober forever. Do everything in my power to avoid the embarrassment of failure. Try focusing on diversions. By doing it this way I don’t think of my drinking days as much as I used to. Most of it has faded from my memory as well as the interest. Sacred is stored inside every human soul. Discover it and be obedient to it. This is how we respect ourselves. Respect yourself. It only comes from within.
see ya’ next time