The cheers and the smiles from the night before will last until sunrise. Now the grief starts to irritate our conscience. Memories of guilt begins as we slowly try to remember fragments of our nightly binge. Worrying about what may have happened. What have I done? We never put this behind us just add more grief to what’s already there. Heard enough? Stories we try to remember and try to make amends the best we can. This only lasts until the next binge. How can this be corrected? To stop using addictions is the answer. The ill feeling and the excuses we make-up and no one believes. Every time this happens the less interested in us people become. Laugh it off but inside only the feeling of disappointment is there. There is no victory. We lost every battle we ever fought. Our own private conflicts that we bring home with us. Guilt is driving us to madness. How many years until we say enough is enough? The weekend is here as we plan for the next binge. Not quite over the guilt of last weeks binge then we go back for more. All through the binge we pretend not to care and brag that nothing bothers us. Feel like kings until we sober up. The life of booze is nothing more than a pretend world. Bar time is closed time to go home and sleep off your hangover. Welcome to a repeat performance. It’s here.
It’s Daylight Again
You heard enough but not lived it enough to quit?
see ya’ next time
