ENDLESS DENIALS

How many times have you promised yourself you will change and gave a reason for each time you didn’t? Convincing and accepting yourself as a failure? Denial is constant as long as we refuse to improve and our grief continues to stay with us. Giving up and don’t care more booze more denial and the endless torture of the human mind and denial will never let us walk away from the life of booze. I was in this type of denial because I refused to believe I had a drinking problem I kept doing this for years more than I should have. No problem no quitting? Take a look at yourself and the routine you keep repeating and what happens after at the end of the routine for me it was never pleasant and not needing to quit so I strangely believed. Booze isn’t about a happy life it’s about getting through the serious issues we face everyday the kind people force on us pushed beyond our limits until we collapse with insanity called impossible deadlines on some jobs it is due in five days needs to be completed in one day. No wonder we drink no coffee is strong enough to handle this intense stress so stay home and blog for a living. This is a source of stress and grief we must avoid and if we do the booze will not be needed to keep our stress down. Our comforts in life and a drinker at any level will never mix booze and drugs in any amount makes us restless total sobriety is required to enjoy any form of comfort. When we run out of booze we travel to get more and the comfortable setting you were in is left behind to get more booze because it is more important to you than simple comforts of life. I have noticed this that in total sobriety you never will leave your comfort zone. The life of booze requires a plan to buy enough for all party guests and then we leave and travel to the bar for more proving boozers have no sense of enough as I have done this like most drinkers do. Many times I have wanted to be in a place other than here and not out into the night drunk and not finding my way home. Endless denials that never ends giving ourselves reasons why we shouldn’t give up the booze. Of all the grief we live through is not enough to make us quit. If it isn’t a shock to us nothing ever will be. If we stay in denial and refuse sobriety tomorrow will be worse than today by not caring are you enjoying all the grief you live each day? Grief doesn’t bother you? What does? Short supply of booze? I have been through this as a boozer and found a way to end it by stop denying that I had drinking problem and told myself that I do and wanted to stay away from it and this is reason enough to stay sober forever. On and on it goes we do not like ourselves but we are too lazy to change it.

Stop the endless grief and improve yourself

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ABOUT FACE

About face is a reversal of direction going the other way and changing our attitude found in pot smoking, vaping, and booze is an odd sense of importance wanting to fill our mind in a room unaware who is there and not knowing who we are. We stay and never get enough and who can explain why. someone there? There is no real human connection, reasoning, debating, only rejecting life itself only the part where it says that addictions will destroy human life and the best way to believe is to think of it as nonsense. We will take life serious later on after all the pot vape and booze is all used up by then our brains will be too. The human mind will be altered and the learning process will not exist maybe some will still be there. These kinds of parties no one sees each other and no memory of being there. Some party don’t even remember what happened or who was there not even yourself? Time to do about face to go the other way and start a new lifestyle. Drink espresso and listen to a favorite song is the cure for all the stress filled moments and you will see that life can be simple if we choose to live it that way. The urge to walk up to the front door for a night of mind killing fun do about face and go the other way doing the same with your bad attitude too and leave your problems at the party and go home with the simple life of being sober.

Lack of interest in addictions use, about face, staying sober

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DECIDING FACTORS

Deciding factors are the most important reasons to stay sober forever and stop creating ruins and find ways to recover. We can always replace most things we lost but the biggest fear is losing what cannot be replaced bad health doesn’t end and then start new. The craving for the need for addictions is important at this moment to take more doses to destroy it along with ourselves and others. We believe it’s a cure for stress, our problems with life, the world, and all the guilt we have not being able to stay sober. Our reasons for deciding is mostly on a personal level wanting to be the sober person we used to be. Jealousy urges us to change feeling left behind the sober crowd sitting drunk believing their much smarter than you. This happened to me and jealousy urged me into a sober life. Believing I didn’t have enough smarts to join them resulted in more anger and more booze followed. Angry and jealous is what pushes us to drink more booze. Others stay sober so why can’t I? Telling ourselves we can’t and never tried to? Everything about us that we are tired of living with are deciding factors reasons to change to a better life all are urging us to move on. Other drinkers stay sober I denied I could do it. They can do it so can I and maybe I’ll be better at it.

The most important deciding factor is yourself

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COUNTRY SCENES

Looking away from addictions use for a country scene, image of a better life, or curious about sobriety meaning you would like to spend more time sober than attending places of drunken bums. We look to see different images and scenes because it is something new to get our minds off the booze that is hard to leave. But not for country scenes of horses, birds, and sheep we know we want to learn more about them and for a few moments booze is not interesting at all but these images won’t last long but the interest will as we think about them with every drink we have feeling guilty that we walked away from a good thing to attend bars and drugs. Feeling guilty means we want to go back to the country scenes and spend more hours with the animals this is why you chose sobriety relaxed and no stress here and the country scenes will always be your first choice. We all ask ourselves how can I stay sober do what you are always thinking about when you are in a bar drinking that better place instead of here. Feeling guilty because you left the country animals? That’s the place you want to be at not in the bars. Booze is the lowest life to live feel like the loneliest mosquito in the swamp and being a pest to yourself sitting in the middle of hundreds of pests.

We will learn from animals never from boozers

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DANGEROUS ENCOUNTERS

Maybe we thought it was all necessary to discover later the benefits of bars that we hoped to find never came along. Finding good in a social environment is fine be it at a diner having pie and coffee not getting drunk at an overpriced club or a jail cell like all your friends do having a martini or two, cigarettes, vaping and to add many more to mention. This is a way to have fun and relax? We will end up with poor health having a hard time relaxing to that. Restrictions is a stress for couples almost none for the single man so why would he take several relaxing addictions are you desperate for dangerous thrills? Work at your job by day and go out and pursue dangerous encounters by night. Our lives will end this way if we stay with it long enough in an alley by a hidden midnight dweller from the shadows. You don’t have to kill off your brain to fit in with a group of friends. There’s no happiness or victory in addictions use unlimited supply is found in sobriety and a properly adjusted ego that will fit in with the sensible sober man. Why go to any gathering that is unsafe to be there a better place to be than to be living in a stale marriage trying to cope and improve it is not going to happen in most cases and booze and bars makes things worse sobriety is the cure. The life of booze is an hourglass full of sand when it runs out our lives do as well. It’s all a matter of time the life of booze is a short term experience we have too much then we need to stay sober.

Forget the dangerous encounters of drunken bar patrons stay sober.

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STRANGELY CONNECTED

Going through life feeling worthless because no one ever cared for you so you will feel the same way and not caring what others think including ourselves and it happens when we have nothing important to do no values to build us up into a strong minded person that knows what the best in life is then chooses to do it. We all reach for the booze to solve our issues that a self-help book can solve and this is the way to avoid the strange connection that we constantly create in the life of booze choosing addictions to solve a sensible issue creating odd people the proper choice to use is sobriety. There is a little strangeness in all humans just to be different and to create a space between us having enough creativity to be what the other person isn’t. With this we are able to choose to be sensible or live an odd lifestyle and in a general sense we are all strangely connected and some by the odd lifestyle we choose the separation is the general sense which is normal then the odd lifestyle of booze we agreed to join and nothing is more strange to do than that and everything odd that goes with it including us. The odd methods we choose to solve our problems can be added to a long list that never helped us then after using our odd choices our actions and behaviors become odd as well. When we start using sensible ideas we become smarter like leaving the addictions alone then the oddball in us slowly disappears and no more weaving down the street mumbling to yourself is one of the strangest things to do. Is no thrill making dumb choices and living and acting them out is even worse and displaying them while drunk and drugged up makes dumb people. We are what we choose to be I decided to be sober not a dumb person. Staying sober will feel strange at first being new to us but when it wears off the comfort zone is always there.

We will never live a strange life when we choose to stay sober

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LITERARY POWER

The ugliness we see around us makes us feel the same deep inside discovering our values they will create the moral life for us to live searching for anything in print and learning from each discovery will improve our lives one page at a time several pages in one book. Allows us to enter the minds of characters and being able to understand their purpose. Through literary, we escape the real world to return to find meaning in it. Literary works reveal our inner lives and the lives of those we do not know at all. Look beyond the place we are sitting at present what is hidden in the nearest shadow, beneath the ripples on the water, rise up and search the land, no longer relying on lines in the sand. It all relates to the constant curiosities without a discovery, Problems without solutions, wanting change but never looking to find it, not caring means booze is preferred. Also a better life is hidden in books telling us how they recovered from booze and all their other bad habits. Booze ends and reading begins our recovery. Boozers are the most depressing proving our existence in the life of addictions is where we prove it. Low status in society and character and depression booze never had a high status just our inflated egos that makes it exist. Always there to degrade the human life because we allow it to and no moral life to stop us and the ruins that control our lives. We are in a hurry to create more disasters in our lives and having no interest in recovery, improvement, or safety. We can’t run away from our problems we must destroy what we don’t want to see or need or want this is what recovery is all about reading books to improve us called literary power that we need constantly to keep us turned away from the booze and start living the constant changes that recovery will provide. When we get the feeling how silly the life of booze is it will make no sense to us and want to quit and walk away to look for books for better entertainment and serious changes and staying sober.

Literary power and improvement not the ruins of booze

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