Month: October 2021

In the cool of the evening we see the setting sun as the guests arrive. The party plans were made days earlier with dangerous risks planned as parties go. Talking with friends who can out drink the other to make an impression or win a bet and desperate to do so. Slow drinks for awhile then the arguments starts pushing you into the booze. Curious if you can become the champion. Ready to step up to the table with bragging and confidence thinking he can do it. Insults from his friends is building his energy. None of your friends argued for the chance to be the player. Excitement is building, glasses on the table, the booze is poured. The race is on for a few minutes then the end of the booze, your life, or your self-respect. The condition we are in the morning after will be a trophy displayed on our self-praise. A big, bright, shiny stain on our conscience is the grand prize we were desperate to win. Only the player is the loser as the rest of the guests watch with humor thinking only a complete fool will try. Passed out the party is over as the guests travel to the nearest bar. No handshake, no pat on the back, no victory party. You will notice how much these friends will ignore you after sleeping it off because you never was a friend of theirs. Someone around to make a fool of and you done that. If you would have said no to the booze none of your friends would have stepped up to try. I know. I’ve been there.

. Take yourself out for latte and have the best party you ever had.

. see ya’ next time

Frustrated with life itself and the one close to us we have some drinks to calm the storm in our lives. A little stress comes our way then the Booze, the cheer, the hangover complaining for a way out of a commitment we made. Confident we can handle the bitterest issues of life. There is nothing wrong with looking the world in the eye and admitting we were wrong. Starting with our troubled lives then the grief of an addiction to an already existing unstable relationship. If we can’t cope with our issues sober then we need a counselor because addictions will never improve it. If this is your life stay sober and single for the rest of your life. Many people choose it and it is a perfect fit for their life. Weird ideas and twisted opinions addictions is all about “Total Distortion”

. End the madness before we go insane

. Swim in the direction of the flow of the river not against it

. Many tragic details about our lives will someday come to an end. All that remains is the memory but not as bad as the actual living of our tragic life. The details will begin to fade and maybe the memory too. Bitter moments will come back to us for a short time. We created our lives now we have ourselves to sit and meditate for our solutions. No sense thinking about our past life focusing on how to prevent it in the future is what matters. Too much guilt of the past causes stress. Don’t think about it . Let it fade.

. see ya’ next time

There are strange things happening to us that we don’t always notice. We all have a certain amount of strangeness that our own eyes don’t see. If we use a product with a slight perfume scent to it the person wearing it won’t notice it but the person next to us will. If we want to know more about ourselves ask the person next to us. Sober most people are too polite to say what’s on their mind. Get them a little drunk and they will talk for an hour on the subject. A lot of coffee works too. Small flaws invisible to us but as big as a bowling ball to other people. Never stop looking for small annoying flaws then little by little we slowly become perfect. Not yet but we can all work on it.

. With humans we can never find them all.

. What lies behind us, and what lies before us are but tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

The confusing structure of the human mind has always been a source of curiosity. To make it more so is why we keep using addictions when we see what it does to us. The confusing question is why? Or is it more simple that we don’t care? What is the answer?

. The reason we quit addictions is easier to explain than why we use them.

. see ya’ next time

No matter how wild we make people think we are there is always a soft spot in us that makes the wild disappear. Waiting for the right moment it will make itself known and become our best companion. Feeding our bodies with addictions creates the wild within. As we refuse them the wild will slowly fade away. Will stay away as long as we want it to. Never stop looking for it. It is in all of us.

. O God, that men should put an enemy in their mouths to steal away their brains. That we should with happiness, pleasure, and satisfaction and applause transform ourselves into a wild person.

. William Shakespeare.

Ending all addictions will create a better person and start experiencing the better of your life. It’s there if you look close enough.

We need to look at ourselves and our lives more serious because the Booze is not fun anymore.

. see ya’ next time

Nightly drunken outings with misguided friends full of Booze and fast cars in a hurry to arrive at our failures. We are not dependable to keep ourselves safe. In our moments of drunken barroom conversations we brag of being mavericks and heroes on how we can handle our liquor. Many have done this and the real joke is some have tried to be both in one. Fantasy is amusing and taken serious being a fantasy writer. There is nothing real about the life of addictions users and drunken bums. What is real is our strange behavior annoying other people as well as the hungover Boozer. Stop being a phoney baloney and start improving yourself. Then we won’t have to hold up our heads and face the miserable life we earned. Solve your daily issues a better way than going to somewhere and guzzle down drinks. Boozers always make their problems worse than they really are.

. No happiness exists just grief on top of grief

. see ya’ next time

In the beginning we thought Booze was the biggest thrill but now it is gone. We will be convinced someday that addictions use is a waste of time. Have we learned our lesson? Leave it all behind you and go back to the Library, Restaurant, Sports with friends. Convinced that addictions never was a thrill at all. Then the thought of relapse will not excite you. The mixed odors of smoke and Booze that we carry around with us that we don’t notice or don’t care that it’s there. No concern for our personal appearance. Booze changes good thoughts into confusion so why mess up a good thing. Speaking and our choice of words will only turn us into babbling idiots. This is a perfect reason to stop addictions. No better time than the present.

. Is Booze still the ultimate thrill?

. Many tragic tales have been written but we don’t turn away from Booze. Taking risks and maybe a repeat of a bad scenario on a dark deserted backroad. All we had to do to avoid it was to take advice not to drink and drive. During the evening of Booze you can write about the best good time you ever had. After a bad accident happens you can write the most tragic story that ever happened to you. Can you live with it for the rest of your life? With Booze there never was a thrill.

. Drink at home and go places sober

. see ya’ next time

The day arrives the plans made and the show must go on. Entertaining the people the crowd is getting wild. The clown steps into the ring then another. A sudden chill comes over us as we notice the circus show is similar to the lifestyle we live. With every binge in the future this will be in our memory as well as our guilt. We stand alone in the darkness feeling small knowing the only way to forget this experience is to stop practicing it. We need to change our lives and do something worthwhile to ease our troubled minds. Then we can live in many peaceful moments. Don’t live a life that has no value and the emptiness we always carry with us. Stop creating more memories of binges of Booze. In the morning our money is gone and the only thing we purchased is many foolish pleasures and a morning of grief. Memories we are forced to observe for years to come.

. Retire the clown act and take the sober act on the road

. See ya’ next time

I considered choosing addictions to solve a conflict. I began to waltz to the edge of death and did a balancing act undecided which way to go. I have seen more than once how my friends have chose this method and all have ended up a failure. Solving my problems without Booze is the better choice. I didn’t want to join my friends as just one more failure to the list of many past present and future. I do the victory dance with a new life of respect. Now you can do the Dance of Love each time the bitter memory appears from the past. Every slow waltz that we do brings back the fear we had and how close to death we came to. It has been many years past and the feeling of victory has never left me. Looking back it was not hard to do. I turned away from a disaster and with some struggle to stay away from addictions I found a road to victory.

. Never give up the struggle and victory will always happen

. See ya’ next time