Month: July 2021

The life of addictions has experienced a sudden death. Laid to rest with last rites and a final farewell reflection. No grieving will enter the scenario. Pleasure will always be among us at every graveside visit. Perhaps one memory will remain. Inspirational thoughts about the death of addictions will be with us as we travel on through life. Also in all our sober days to come. Words get in the way when spiritual reflection works better. Strolling down the cemetery road under a cold and windy overcast sky with the feeling of death beside us. The smell of dead worms and dried snails beneath our feet. The cold chill and the thought of death and the memory of the cause and the guilt of remorse. Having too much we may want to trade places with the name on the tombstone. Knowing that death is a place to hide. The dark tormenting feeling of addictions use will fade because there are no more reminders around us to keep the memory alive. Desperate for escape no time is wasted to plan a better life. Leave it all behind us at the cemetery before we make our exit. The choice is ours. The coffin is open waiting to lay our addictions life to rest. Watching the lid closing slowly the addictions life begins to fade to black. The key to lock the coffin is inserted and slowly turned for the last time. The addictions life will be dead and gone. Grief and remorse will die and happiness will be alive and well.

My epitaph will read:

“My addictions life is buried here in ruins as I enjoy my free and happy life”

see ya’ next time

Each time we get high on addictions the comfort will not arrive. The high itself is no comfort to many people myself included. Getting high from booze was not a problem back in the day. Thinking there is no better source. The ultimate life. Waking up from this life of strange images and found my natural high and never looked back. An evening of doses and distorted scenes. Where is the pleasure in that? For each one we consume gives our lives more problems than the one before. When the feeling comes over us how silly the life of booze is this will be our beginning of our life of sobriety. This is how it started with me and stayed sober for many years. A Natural High is a cheerful and joyous feeling happening naturally on it’s own. No one decides when it happens. Sensible thinking is refusing addictions and let our free spirited nature decide the activity that can only provide our Natural High. We have been told this by sober people and ignored it each time. Thinking we chose the best life. The days of pretending and lying to ourselves. Totally miserable on the inside and a pretend happiness on the outside. The nonsense we speak that only we will listen to. Standing alone in the darkness after all the people have walked away. Telling ourselves that we are strong enough that it will not bother us. One day the booze will dry up and all the people we knew will return. I lost interest in booze and became a follower of a Natural High. What do you wish to do command or obey? Sobriety or remorse? kill it off or keep it alive? Saying we would like to quit the booze means we are not enjoying it at all. In the same breath we say we like it we are making fools of ourselves. We thought we were stronger than Booze and we were wrong. We struggled with it and lost. Accept your loss and the lesson learned. No sense in a rematch. Unless it’s Basketball. After being sober for awhile you will see the good life you missed. Stay away from the phony bar scenes and the miserable person you are creating for yourself. Leave the addictions high behind you and take to the sky on a Natural High.

Natural High by Bloodstone. 1973

see ya’ next time